Chapetr 4.3

How are you b6ee5at today :D?

so before she speak, 7sayt ef-shy, ena waye'ha; Her eyes were full of unspoken words, a tear escaped her eye: Your dad called this morning, he said he wants to spend time with you :'D
I was shocked, now? I was tearning up, my mum kissed my cheeks and said: stay strong okay? your my baby and nothing is going to happen<3, okay babe?
I said: promise?
She kissed my hands and said 'promise'
I hugged her and sat in my place eating my breakfast, then my mum spoke again; mo bs che w gal shy thany b3ddd haha ='DD
Me: and what did 3bdulla say?
Mum: 3bdulla? 3ain 3laych, he still stays your father !
Me: My so called father, lawsema7ty mama
Mum: elmuhem, gaal ena he was married 9 years ago, yes 9; he has 3 kids; Noura the eldest one, 7th grade; Fa6ma 4th grade and Mohammed the younges one 4years old, He said he wants to divorce me, and I accpeted, is that okay with you?

and when she said that, flashbacks of old times, well, a train of thoughts were in my head; I started thinking about my mum, her feelings, my so called dad, his children, his new wife, the divorce, my life, my mum's life, our life, their life, what would it be like? normal? and the time he wants to spend with me? what would he do? what would we do? shbe9eer? OMG STOP IT UGGHHH

I snapped out of it and answered my mum's question: look, etha 3any ana? do what you think is good, look I'm just 15 and I don't care about him, I just care about you, kay babe? I love you and I want whats best for you<3
Her: 7beeeeebbttyyy zayyoonaa<3 etha 3any anaa? I'll divorce him, bs 5ayfa 3laych!
Me: wiiii 5ayfa 3laay ana? laysh shby9eer 7gy, agouul bs, do what you think is best and I'm with you<3
Her: Okay bebe, now kamly aklch 3shan a'3asel el97oon :) aby aratb el'3uraf b3d 3endy wayedd work today
Me: afa 3laych ana a'3asel el97oon<3 wla ata3bch
Her: fdaayt bnty elbaraa anaa<3

kamalt akly w r7t w '3slt elplates, w ana a'3asel g3adt afakr fl kalam ely galata 7gy c': It hurts, 9aa7? bs honestly I felt happy and sad, yes mixed feelings, you know that feeling lain you cry so much? you later feel emotionless, broken hearted la? yes, thats me, bs my condition is worst :')) haha xo


I went upstaires, ja'hazt my clothes 7g ilzwara; I took a long shower got out and wore my clothes;

 

lebasat simple stuff, its just zwara, w lebasat my black toms.

76ayt mouse 3shan sh3ry y9eer curly, 9ar straight waves -_-

Almost like this, bs more natural;

 

so I added bronzer like I always do, some mascara and some lip gloss, to keep my lips shiny. I wore this bag ^

I went down staires, w cheft my mum still mo ja'hza, I asked laysh, she said she's comming around 4 o'clock, I agreed, so now my ride is Jassim, my cousin; which is 17years old, he has a crush on my since .. forever?

 

Elmuhem my mum told me he's going to be there after 5 mins, I grabbed an apple and sat on the ground cheaking my phone and eating my apple.

 

Jassim arrived and pinged me, so I go outside, I kissed my mum's forhead and left.

I opened the front door and sat quietly.

 

He soke: 3laykum elsalam :D

Me: haha x_x salaam :))

Jassim: 3ady, shlonch?

Me: zayna and you?

Jassim: 7mdlaa, ha mshayna?

Me: sure?

Jassim Opened the engin and drove away.

It was an awkward ride, he looks and smiles at me every now and then, and when I catch him, he looks away lool.

It was a REALLY quiet ride, the only noise there that made me laugh was me bitting the apple lol.

 

We got there, I took a deep breath, closed my eyes for two seconds and pushed the door open, awal ma dshayt kl my cousin labseen thyab kash5a, w sha3ar'hum sh6ool :))

 

Everyone's eyes were at me exactly like this: 0_0

Yes i was embaressed bs I just ignored, and went to my grandma, awal ma dshayt she teared up and said: ZAYOUNA<3 kebarrtyyy :o ta3ali 3a6eeeni hug ya 7lwa<3

I screamed: NNNAAAANNAAAA<3 Nanii i miss you :c

And I hugged her, then r7t salamt 3la my anties, they asked about my mum and I told them she was busy, she's comming around 4, later my grandma called me 3shan nsolef 3an ay jam3aa barouu7, ana ay mdrsa, I told her ena A7mdd wld Remas wyaay, she was happy :c<3 a7bb'hhaa :c

 

I then went and sat wya my cousins, I hugged each and everyone of them. Bayt my grandma fl durra so after eating that delicious maachboos dyaay <3_<3 kl my cousins and me re7na g3adna 3la elbeach, and I regreted it :'') . . .

 

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