Broken, sad, lonley, hurt, upset, alone, depressed, suicidal, angry, hateful, breaking down, screaming, dead, empty, nothing, crying, shouting, giving up, hiding, wearing a mask, cutting, horrible, down, worthless, crushed, missunderstood, forced, scared ... Have you ever felt all this in the same time ? Annoying, eh ?
I sat there at the corner of the room, crying my eyes out, just hearing my parents voice fighting and argue'ing, All this time i've been living in a lie; 'I love you' meant 'becareful, i'm cheating on you' ... All these nights that dad was 'traveling' he was in the same house of a strange woman ? I sat there with my photo album, watching our old photos; good times i said. Suddenly without any warning, I heard my mum shout, like scream shout. I ran off to see what happened now, I saw my dad standing infront of my mum while she's lying down with her right hand on her right cheek, that moment .. I realize that he slapped her. And while getting out of the house he said 'Enty 6aleg, 6aleg, 6aleg' ... That moment, i froze in a shook, i was shoked ! Yes, they fight everyday but .. mato9wal wya'hum lain hay ildaraja :').
My mum cried her eyes out, on that cold floor, I tried not to cry, to stay strong, but deep inside I was DYING, all i did was hug her and comforting her with, 'Its okay, nothing serious', 'A7bch' and 'Stay strong babe' :')
No use ...
Since i was 6, till now which is 8years ago, (I'm 15 years) my so called father started hiting her, and me, my brother Fahad ydrs bara3, he studies in London :), lain y39b yfsh 5lga feny w fy mama, shwayna :')? I use to ask him for dolls and toys, he refused to buy me some m3ana we are a rich family :), I grew up almost a boy, playing football, hating make'up, boyish stylies and so on :).
My name is Zayyn and this is my storyy :) ..
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